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damn hot, but he needed their first real time together to be about more than the act itself.
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Sitting back on his heels, Jakob reached for the large box of condoms. When Zac started
to reach for the package, Jakob shook his head. Not this time. I won t last if you touch me.
Zac smiled and nodded. Okay.
Jakob tried to concentrate on Zac s dark brown eyes as he rolled the condom down his
length. Zac started to roll over, but Jakob once again shook his head. It may be old-fashioned,
but he d always equated the missionary position with making love. Stay there.
Cock in hand, Jakob guided his crown to Zac s hole. He held his breath as he slowly
eased past the outer ring of muscles, giving Zac s body time to accommodate to the invasion.
Once he was securely inside, Jakob covered Zac s body with his own and began a slow
rhythm in and out.
Jakob brushed his lips lightly across the scarred portion of Zac s face, making sure not
to apply pressure to the tender wounds. When Zac didn t pull away, Jakob knew he d hit a
major milestone in gaining the man s trust.
Zac s short fingernails scraped their way across and down Jakob s back as he rose up to
meet each thrust of Jakob s hips. Love your cock.
Jakob moved his mouth to Zac s and whispered, I m glad you do because you re
everything I ve ever wanted. I can t imagine my life without you.
Under him, Zac went completely still as Jakob kissed him. Although Zac opened his
mouth to allow entrance, Jakob eventually noticed there was no reciprocation. He pulled
back and stared into Zac s eyes. Blank. It was as if Zac had shut off all emotion in the span of
a minute.
What s wrong? Jakob asked, slowing his thrusts.
I can t breathe. Zac began pushing at Jakob s chest. I need to get up.
Surprised at the turn of events, Jakob tried to reason with Zac. Would you rather we
did this on our sides?
No! I d rather you get off me and let me up! Zac snapped.
A mixture of surprise and anger filled Jakob. For several seconds he froze, his cock still
buried in Zac, before pulling out and jumping to his feet. Stripping the condom from his
cock, Jakob studied Zac. What the hell did I do now?
Zac sat up and scrambled to pull his shorts on. I just need a minute.
Without another word Zac stalked off, disappearing into the dense forest beyond their
camp.
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Jakob threw up his hands. What the fuck?
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Chapter Five
Wearing only a pair of underwear, Zac sat on the cold ground watching the camp fire.
Sleep had always been a problem for him. It was either there or not. The previous week it
seemed all he did was sleep, but now he couldn t seem to settle long enough to drift off.
A sound in the tent behind him drew his attention. He hoped he hadn t disturbed Jakob
when he d built the fire. He d tried his best to be quiet, but like everything else he did he d
fucked it up, dropping one of the logs against the rock.
When a soft snore sounded, Zac went back to watching the flames. After his earlier
episode, he d been too embarrassed to speak to Jakob, let alone touch him. The two of them
had prepared a quick dinner and Zac had escaped to the tent shortly after. He was still wide
awake when he d heard Jakob moving around and then the sound of a can opening.
Zac had noticed the two cans of beer in Jakob s backpack earlier, but hadn t asked. It
wasn t until he heard Jakob talking that he understood what they were for.
He d listened to Jakob toast his twin brother and remembered his lover s birthday. It
had only served to remind himself why he wasn t good enough for Jakob.
Zac stopped and shook his head. No. That wasn t fair, not to Terry. Sure Terry had his
faults, but the reason the relationship between them hadn t worked was because of Zac, not
Terry.
No matter how hard he tried, Zac couldn t find joy in anything. Even having a great
guy like Jakob in love with him didn t bring him the feelings that he knew it should. He
loved Jakob, or at least he thought he did, so where was the joy he thought he d feel? What
was the point of opening up to a person if it didn t make him feel any different?
Terry knew that about him. His ex-boyfriend had seen the signs and called Zac on
them, and Zac couldn t bring himself to care. It had been the beginning of the end for them,
just like it was only a matter of time before Jakob figured out there was no pleasing him. It
wasn t that Jakob didn t want to be pleased, he simply didn t know how to conjure the
emotions that allowed him to be pleased.
The zipper lowering on the tent was loud in the quiet of the moment. Zac s spine
stiffened as he waited for the inevitable.
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Instead of questioning him, Jakob placed a patchwork quilt over Zac s shoulders and
retreated back to the tent without a word.
Zac clutched the edges of the blanket as the tears began to fall. Jakob was too good a
man. He deserved to know the truth about& everything.
* * * *
After returning to the tent, Jakob sat up and watched Zac s shadowed silhouette against
the firelight through the screened tent flap. The day had been a rollercoaster ride, leaving
him to wonder if his love for Zac was deep enough to get them through the highs and lows.
The shaking of Zac s shoulders and the subsequent sniffles alerted Jakob to his lover s
tears. Jakob moved to his knees, prepared to charge out and wrap his arms around Zac, but
something stopped him. Was it the knowledge that it wouldn t be a welcomed gesture?
Zac had made his feelings pretty damn clear in the last several hours. Whatever he was
going through, Zac seemed to prefer to tackle it on his own. Jakob knew he should respect
that, but his overwhelming desire to fix things had him riding the fence.
Jakob wasn t a doctor, but the longer he was around Zac, the more he started to agree
with Sam Browning. Perhaps Zac would benefit from some intense therapy? Although Jakob
felt horrible for Zac, he simply didn t have the experience to know what Zac was really going
through.
The memories of Terry s abuse were obviously tearing Zac apart, but what could Jakob
do if Zac refused to let him in?
Zac stood and dropped the blanket into the fire. Jakob scrambled out of the tent and
raced towards the man he loved. He wrapped his arms around Zac s waist and physically
lifted the smaller man off the ground, moving him out of harm s way.
After making sure Zac was safe, Jakob found a branch and made sure the fire was
contained within the pit. As he watched the handmade quilt burn, Jakob tried to get his
breathing and emotions under control.
Once he d calmed down, he turned away from the fire. Zac stood emotionless. Zac?
With tears still wet on his cheeks, Zac continued to stare at the fire. I wanted to kill
myself, he whispered.
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Bile rose in Jakob s throat at the proclamation. Instead of rushing to Zac s side, he went
back into the tent and dressed. Making sure his keys were in his pocket, he found Zac a clean
set of clothes and took a deep breath.
It was obvious something was seriously wrong, and Jakob knew it was beyond his
realm of expertise. He carried Zac s clothes out and zipped the tent up tight. There wasn t
time to break camp. He d come back after taking care of Zac. If the weather or animals
destroyed something, so be it.
Here, sweetheart, let s get you dressed. Jakob lifted Zac s feet, one at a time, and
slipped the shorts on, pulling them up to his waist.
Did you hear what I said? Zac asked when Jakob pulled a T-shirt over his head.
I heard you. I m just glad I was here for you to tell. Jakob s chest felt so tight he could
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